1st Diaversary

yeahhhh today is my very first diaversary! what is that?
oh it's diabetic+anniversary. oh wait, yeah i'm a diabetic.
i don't know i should celebrate it or not. haha!

hm,
"do you eat too much sugar?"
"oh you can cure it with diet and exercise!"
omg guys, i know you had grandparents with diabetes. but let me explain here. i'm TYPE ONE DIABETES. your grandparents had type two diabetes and the may cure it with diet and exercise as most people say. unfortunately, i'm type one and i relying on insulin for the rest of my life. oh no, maybe someday there is a cure :')

actually, i'm pretty sad bcs all of my relatives do not have the awareness about this disease. they only think that i got diabetes bcs they think i ate too much sugar. oh s*** hurm whatever dude. i'm too lazy to explain this until you guys have it, and i will *clapp* haha!

along this one year i live with daily insulin shots, finger pricking, i'm doing it alone, i'm not telling this to my friends. even my bestfriends! i have no courage to tell them. i just want they to think that i'm okay. like "yeah sure, i'm totally fine. look we can still hangout together, shopping, go to cinema, we go working together to get some pocket money." bcs it's a invisible disease and i can hide it pretty well. but seriously i will tell my bestfriends, they should know about this . .someday . .i will tell you :')

when i was diagnosed, i couldn't think anything else but death. i don't know lah, i always thought that i will not live a long life, like i don't have future, i don't want to do anything like continue my study and achieve my dreams. few months after out from hospital, i just lying on my bed, taking my daily insulin shots, finger pricking, having hypos. ahh i didn't want to remember those moments. but slowly i tried to open my mind, finding friends same as me on instagram, and when i look at them, i know i'm not alone, it just in malaysia, it's hard to find people with T1D(type one diabetes). most of them from america and their country had an association for children with T1D and they have awareness about this disease. woah they are so lucky!

i always search something related to t1d especially on Pinterest! they got a lot information for t1d and a like to read their humors about diabetes, it's funny and just people with t1d understand it! 

you understand it? then you're a diabetic. haha!

hm so guys, finally i slowly accept the fact that i'm a diabetes and i set on my mind, it's not a disease, it just a lifestyle.

Life full of challenges we must through it

if you can keep your head when all about you
are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
if you can trust yourself when all people doubt you,
but make allowance for their doubting too:
if you can wait and not being tired by waiting,
or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
or being hated don't give way to hating,
and yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

if you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
if you can think - and not make thought your aim:
if you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
and treat those two impostors just the same;
if you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
and stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools:

if you can make one heap of all your winnings
and risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
and loss, and start again at your beginnings
and never breathe a word about your loss;
if you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
to serve your turn long after they are gone,
and so hold on when there is nothing in you
except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
if you can talk in crowds and keep your virtue,

or walk with Kings - nor lose the the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
if all people count with you, but none too much;
if you can fill the unforgiving minute
with sixty seconds worth of distance run,
yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
and - which is more - you'll be stronger!